I always tears stopless without crying, am I still a genuine man???
by Thomas Guoting Guo
It said that Men hardly cry even if they have tears in they eyes. However, since I have been forced into exile by the CCP rogue regime, I have numberless experience tearing without crying when I was alone. My sorrow-heart is not for myself, but for misunderstanding by many friends, even by those who I had sacrificed so much while ask for nothing return. I feel extremely sorry to my exile wife, who in fact love me so tender for eighteen years, and sacrifice her career as a lawyer for my daughter and family, the result by divorce with heart-broken. I feel especially ashamed and guilty to my beloved daughter. Because during her school and university years, I was not able to help her a penny that forced her have to took two jobs, while she is studying at the UBC, if there is any father who are useless to his daughter, that unqualify old father is me,thus her first letter to me declared that if she has choose, the last man she would like to choose to be her father is me.
While I am translating the thank letter by Mr. Huang jingqiu, who is my hero client suffered 12 in prison for his peaceful organized a political party online. The letter which revealed the genuine friendship and appreciation that touch my inner heart so much, that move me to tears could not able to stop flowing down like river; although I have defend a number of political and religious clients,with all my heart and ability, without consider my career nor my family interest at all, but few of them even said a single word of thanks,one of them even complaint me did not do enough; such as a Shanghai lady, I defend her for almost nothing, but pay myself to cover the costs. While she beg me bring the lawsuit against my Boss-Shanghai Judicial Bureau and its head Mr. Miao Xiaobao! Because she was repeatedly and illegally forced into labour camp for her appeal to Beijing for her family house be evicted by Shanghai city government.
Although I am not so 'stupid fool' that can not understand what will be the result、、、、、、however, after I decide to help her bring a lawsuit against the Judicial Bureau, and its Boss Mr. Miao Xiaobo, not because I did not know what risky job I took ,but for I truly sympathize with her great suffering by the Bureau. With all my capacity and heart, I, with my colleague Lawyer the former judge Mr. Tong Wenzhong, go through all legal procedure from district court and middle court in Shanghai,which took me 12 full-days to dealing with the case : to study the case, gather evidences, research and analyzed the laws and regulations, visited her in jail three times, hearing in court five times, wrote a number of legal documents including two defense statement and appeal statement, published online four essay appeal for international concern and supporting,which made her become prominent、、、、、、 because I did not successful to meet her once during the appeal period, not my fault, but the police refuse me see her individually, while either me or Lawyer Tong are not able to arrange at the same time to visit her, that she sent me a letter asked for more meeting, the only thanks when she free from the labour camp she give me is that She published an article on the website of "Independent Chinese Pen society" which complain "Lawyer Guo is not the experts in the law of labour reform" ! But she alleged that she is!
As to my other important human rights clients, seems either show their appreciation or sent me a single letter after they were released from jail, prison, or labour camp; Neither I heard they show their appreciation for my humble and unsuccessful defense, which under the evilest criminal rogue regime, even if I were the God, I am afraid hardly have any chance to win the case、、、、、、is it the human nature? or Chinese culture lacking the sense of thanksgiving? In fact, I myself also have ignorant to thanks all friends who have been helping and supporting me in time, but in my deep heart, I always remember whoever have help me great or small, and wish one day I can pay them back with interests. Please allow me pray for all of you and yours with the God blessing to have a happy peace and wealthy family and love life.