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·文学感言/郭国汀
·郭国汀:春
·郭国汀:读实秋有感.
·郭国汀:理想.
·郭国汀:律师.
·郭国汀:作文.
·郭国汀:坚韧不拔
·郭国汀:兴趣.
·信函/南郭
·日记与书信/南郭
·性格/南郭
·天才,蠢才,笨蛋/南郭
·陈良宇是中共残酷政治斗争的牺牲品
·郭国汀 国人民族主义乃中共误导所致
·人民公社万岁?!--《辉煌的幻灭》读后感
·如何成为一名伟大的,优秀的法律人?网友评论
·如何成为一名对社会有用的人
·谁杀死了中国伟大的诗人杨春光?
·忆对我前半生影响至深的三位老师
·A Letter to a Chinese
·不敢讲真话的民族注定是受奴役遭天谴的软骨头的劣等种族
·This is no time to kowtow to China
·南郭初步定论宣昶玮
·自封上帝皇帝圣人者:狂妄无知之徒?!
·南郭点评宣昶玮自封紫薇圣人
·南郭点评张千帆教授论宪政
·愤怒出诗人,悲愤出伟诗
***(55)郭国汀律师专访
·世纪回眸(69)-专访郭国汀之一
·世纪回眸(70)-专访郭国汀律师之二
·郭国汀谈郭飞雄、力虹、陈树庆遭被捕
·法律人的历史使命---答《北大法律人》主编采访录
·郭国汀律师答亚洲周刊纪硕鸣采访实录
·希望之声专访:声援高智晟同时也是在为自己
·胡平章天亮郭国汀谈中华文化与道德重建
·希望之声专访郭国汀 中共是最大的犯罪利益集团
·中共已是末日黄昏----郭国汀声援杨在新律师
·希望之声专访郭国汀用法律手段揪出幕后凶手
·【专访】郭国汀从海事律师到人权律师的转变
·专访郭国汀:为女儿打破沉默
·郭国汀谴责中共对他全家迫害恐吓
·郭国汀律师谈中国司法现状
·人权律师郭国汀在加拿大谈六四
·加拿大华人举办烛光悼念纪念六四-著名人权律师郭国汀称退党运动具有重大意义 
·采访郭国汀律师:被逼离婚 战斗到底
·华盛顿邮报报导高智晟律师事件
·[专访]郭国汀律师:从刘金宝案谈开去
·希望之声专访郭国汀和盛雪
·大纪元专访郭国汀 中共垮台是必然的
·郭国汀谈高智晟律师的公开信
·中共的末日只是时间迟早的问题
·中华文化与道德重建
·【专访】郑恩宠律师郭国汀谈郑案内情
·【专访】辩护律师郭国汀谈清水君案
·郭国汀指雅虎遵守当地法律说无法律根据
·郭国汀触怒司法当局:中国律师维护社会正义风险大
·US lawmakers ask Beijing to reinstate law firm of rights activist
***国际透视
·北朝鲜疯狂发展核武器为哪般?
·中国强劳产品出口的罪孽
·郭国汀 中国人民的真正朋友加拿大总理斯蒂芬 哈柏
·只有抛弃马列毛实现法治自由民主21世纪才有可能属于中国
·华盛顿邮报详细报导陈光诚案判决情况
·中国是国际网络表达自由的头号敌人
·华盛顿邮报陈光诚案庭审报导Chinese Rights Activist Stands Trial After Police Detain Defense Team
·新闻检查最严厉的十个国家胡锦涛称要向北朝鲜和古巴学习政治!
·国际人权观察就赵长青狱中受虐致胡温公开函
·中国驻美使馆拒收立即释放师涛的国际呼吁书
·国际保护记者委员会哀悼吴湘湖记者
·BBC 英语新闻报导《冰点》被封事件
·国际保护记者委员会关注声援杨天水
·国际保护记者委员会谴责中共迫害记者李长青
·国际保护记者委员会呼吁立即无条件释放杨天水
·CPJ URGER MR.HU RELEASE JOURNALISTS IN CHINA
·Overcoming Violence Abroad and at Home
·Lawyers Sentence Tests IOCs Ability to Enforce Olympic Promises
·Free China Rally in Canberra,
·Open Letter to President Hu Jintao and Prime Minister Wen Jiabao from the Coalition to Investigate the Persecution of Falun Gong in China (CIPFG)
·非洲的复兴(African Renaissance)
***(56)大学日记
·错误是我犯的,但数十年后亲自纠错我还不伟大吗?!
·郭国汀 “只有社会主义才能救中国”质疑
·国家是民族矛盾不可调和的产物而非阶级斗争的产物/郭国汀
·阶级斗争的思考/郭国汀
·论干部制度/郭国汀
·无产阶级领袖有感/郭国汀
·学习与开放/郭国汀
·如何理解劳动?──有感于中国1956─1959年之“三大改造/郭国汀”
·时空畅想/郭国汀
·文革教训原因考/郭国汀
·对物质的思考/郭国汀
·精神文明与物质文明/郭国汀
·内因与外因关系的沉思
·外因是决定事物运动变化发展的根本原因
·开放党禁与多党联合政治
·论质、量互变关系
·如何理解劳动?——有感于中国1956—1959年之“三大改造”
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My forty years struggle for freedom and justice III


   
   My forty years struggle for freedom and justice III
   
   

   By Thomas GT Guo
   
   Chapter III Disaster falling from sky
   
   3.1 The virtue for fortune is constraint, while the righteousness for catastrophe is persistence. Calamity often become the excuse of those weaker in mind to surrender their fate good reason, while cataclysm always turn into a good chance for those stronger in will to struggle their destiny.Many people have a common life which like black water too smooth to boring. Some met lots of difficulties on their way, experienced much troubles. Still more after misfortune one from another, lost their characters, wither their will to fight, eventually obey the fate control go up and down with the river wave, lost their personality. Only those who no matter face whatever thorny, arduous,tough situation, never give up but persistent struggle to the end, might ship the fate- vessel, Over the rapids and dangerous, finally reach the ideal aim.
   
   3.2 Career and love are two pillar for one's life. some success in career but fail in love, while others win the love but do not have glorious career. Few luckiest are those who win the sweet love while success in career. As Hunglia poet Bai Tophi said that: Life is value,love has much more valuable. Either ancient and today, or china and foreign, there are numberless heroes for love, even do not afraid of Fire and boiled water,to fight to death. There are many touch heart and soul's love poems, reflect mankind's desire for sweet love. However, because chasing true affection and love, few not only abandoned by one's lover, but betrayed and put into despair situation. Unfortunately,I become such a seldom victim.
   
   3.3 From characteristics perspective, I am an honest,integrity, self-confident, persistent,resolute, determined man, while easily trust other, also has a little Vanity. My mom always taught me that listening Mao's words, to be a diligent, honesty good boy.When I was a kid our text books essays such "the wolf is coming", "from iron to needle", "Kongrong let young brother to have big pear", and several decade long-distance running training,all have help build up my characteristics.
   
   3.4 From my inner mind, I am a passionate, tough outside, tender inside, full of emotional feeling's man. On the one way, full of emotional feeling, remain every help and grace in deep heart and always trying to find chance return others favor, on the other hand, do not fear of any powerful guy nor scare any authority, only obey the truth. No matter how hard the situation, no matter facing whoever pressure, never lower down my proud head. In essence, I am a idealist, pursuing the truth, compassionate, and love, because I believe the nature of the universal is the love. I never remember hate, nor try to revenge, even if to those who had persecuted or betray me, I always forgive them. My imagin for love is idealism, might be it dooms me have to play the tragedy role in my love life.
   
   3.5 To career I always have a struggle spirits which is never give up and fight to the end, thus always can overcome barriers go through and capture fortress. but to chasing love I lacking necessary patient,Dedication,and persistence, too much self-respected and Vanity, caused me met one fail after another. The "mental out of mind" accident, utterly destroy my reputation in front of public, in my former girl-friends eyes, I become four grade disable. Anyway, I always have a strong faith that I am innocent, not only I will stand up again to success in my career, but also can find that heart which can trust me and understand my mind.
   
   3.6 In the early July 1986, through a professional magazine, I make made a friend with a girl in Tangshan, Hebei, and named her Furong, simble a lotus flower from dirty soil with pure quality, for I wish she will like the lotus flower has the elegant quality of her soul. Furong is a eye's surgery doctor with strong sense of responsibility, her physiognomy is very attractive, quite pretty with a pair big shinning eyes full of energy, a small but shape nose, a sexy lip with a rose face. She was twenty-eight years old young girl,full of fire passion, just like a rose ready to burst for her lover. I was 28 year old young trial lawyer, with a strong body, healthy mind, smart brain, and swimmer's figure. At the first glance at her, like electrified the fire in both of us bruning out of control, during four months I sent her more hundred love letter, in order to write funny, interesting,and attractive, and elegant letter, I had read more than 50 Vol love poem!
   
   3.7 Soon both of us fall in love crazily, to read her love letter and wrote love letter to her become my most joyful enjoyment. Taken advantage of dealing cases, I went to see her at Tangshan twice, and lived at her apartment, deeply fall in love, forget who I am and where I am. Both of us feel we met a little to later, waste a lots of invaluable time, otherwise we would have enjoyed our sweetest love more. Just like the dry wood meet fire, inevitably between Furong and me have making love as if the end of the world in coming. So We start to discuss our marriage, I wish she move to Fuzhou for my career as foreign lawyer, only in Fuzhou has promise future. She told me the she will to follow me to the end of sky and the corner of the sea.
   
   3.8 Before marry, I decide to tell her all my history without remain any secret, for I hold a principle of absolute honesty to my lover one. On 10 January 1987 evening, I try my best to explain to her what I have thought about philosophy, jurisprudence, and legal theory, and compare with the principles of natural science, such as mathematics, physical and chemical science, with social science, and analyze to obtain the shocking conclusion which totally different with the official opinion, finally I told her my discovered a formula of mathematics, and asked her to certified its correction. It seems I successfully convincing her that I am a sort of genius, then I told her frankly that because of my independent thought and dissident political thought, I was treated as a"Mental patient" by the party secretary in the university. She told me that she complete understood me and said I was a genius, which move me almost to tears, for I thought finally I found my sweetheart.
   
   3.9 However,two months later, the situation turn to sour, at beginning, she love letters become fewer, then on 10 May 1987, she sent me a letter asked for broken our relationship, which I disagree; because trusted her completely, I replied her with a long letter, point out that we could not able to resolve the problem to live together, the main reason is that the human resource system is backforward, and so called" people's democratic dictatorship", in essence is that fake democracy, real dictatorship. in the letter I told her that I was born to be somebody to do great cause, with a purpose to convincing her to believe I am well deserved her love, and will not made her disappointment, did my last effort to maintain the losing love, but she sent me the last letter announce that if I disagree with her, she would not wrote me forever, which made me no choose but accept her unreasonable demand friendly to finish our love relationship.
   
   3.10 The Pain of lost love did not feel good, I understood the root is that made me humiliating accident of "mental patient ", at meantime, I learn that Amoi University turn me down, the excuse is that I did not have a master of law degree neither I had Intermediate title. That led me decide retake entry exams for my Master of law degree, and I success pass the exams for LLM of International Maritime law, my tutor is Professor Zhu Zengjie, a prominent scholar as well a practitioner in admiralty and shipping. I thought I can realise my dream of being a scholar now, however, I never expect that an even big Political Storm, push me from my career summit into a deep abyss which disappoint me so much that I hardly could bear again!

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