Chongqing, China 1976, I’m 6 years old. After returning from Three-Creek Outlet, Beibei, Chongqing, the countryside campus of No. 52 High School, to Lianglukou, Urban District, Chongqing, one day after 12 o’clock at noon, my Mom and Dad haven’t come back yet. I’m the only one at home. The broadcasting and also people around all praise “the great leader Chairman Mao” every day, and some people said to oppose Mao at heart and got labeled as anti-revolutionary, and heavily persecuted. Is Mao truly that efficacious? Can he or his followers see people oppose Mao even at heart? If so, isn’t Mao God?
Wearing a white with color dot shirt, I lie in bed and decide to do an experiment. I feel a little bit hungry. Usually I do not feel hungry. Hey, I got it. I say in my heart, “Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat,” then again, “Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat.” That’s twice. To make sure I have done this, I keep saying in my heart.
“Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat,” “Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat,” “Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat,” “Do not give any food to Chairman Mao to eat,” having counted 6 times, I stop. Now I’m sure that I have said so in my heart.
As the leader of China, he should be responsible for the many years famine in China. When people do not have food to eat, he shouldn’t have food to eat.
I feel that’s not enough. Wearing the white with color dots shirt, I turn over in bed, and again say in my heart, “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” “Do not give any food to Premier Zhou to eat,” having counted 6 times, I stop. I feel as the premier of this country, Zhou should be responsible for the tribulation of this country as well. Two months ago, I heard he died, not sure whether that was true or not.
Having accomplished my project, I sit up on the bed, listening whether something happen around. If Mao is really that efficacious, then those so-called revolutionary around should have known by now that I opposed “the Great Leader” and should have come to inflict me, but nothing happened. After about 15 minutes, my Mom and Dad come back, treating me as usual, knowing nothing about my saying in heart just now. Having stayed with them for 20 minutes, nothing happened. It looks that the so-called “the Great Leader” is a hoax. Then I walk to the outside corridor, with 10 families living within 20 yards on this side of the corridor. The doors of most homes are open, and I walk on the corridor to and fro 3 times. No one accuses me, seeming they know nothing about my experiment. In the afternoon, I meet more people, including the classmates and teachers in the kindergarten. Again, no one accuses me. These have completely verified my thought that Mao and Zhou are not efficacious and are not great at all. The doing of some people to inflict those who are regarded to have opposed Mao in heart is to produce tons of wrongful cases.
Look, one like me who truly oppose the so-called leader and say in heart that do not give any food for the leader to eat, over a hundred people around me cannot tell it and no one come to accuse me. This is different from what I heard of God loving people. When one does not believe in God, God does not punish him/her owing to God’s love for people. And I know the so-called Great Leader Mao never have that kind of love, and whoever opposes him, he gave orders to beat, to imprison, to kill whoever including his comrades for decades like Peng Dehuai, Liu Shaoqi, Lin Biao.
Having done this experiment, I feel I can think whatever I like at heart. The leader like Mao is not that efficacious and the truth is not on the side of the high Communist officials. My heart/spirit can be free. Meanwhile, the high Communist officials like Mao have been leading China to move on a wrong way and has been praised by many people. It looks that there are many tribulations awaiting me in this country.
Today in 2013, Chinese people’s misery exceeds happiness, very hard to stay alive, with the environment unsuitable for human to live. If you want you or your friends in this life get back the human rights of half an acre land, welfares of housing, medical care, the voting rights on the tax rate and the government budget, you’d better read through this long essay. Google translate can read text aloud for you. If you have foreign friends/teachers, you may tell them to read the English part of my essay. More articles of mine can be seen my blog at “boxun”, my name Wei Liu/刘蔚 is at the bottom of the homepage. What we say here we hold is true and is for 1.3 billion Chinese people. Every one is welcomed to publish, to spread our words to save yourself, your friends and our country.