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·Wei Liu Revolution 437: Congratulations on Cai Yingwen Become Taiwan P
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·Wei Liu Memoir 1.102: Released Only After Study for Revolution
·刘蔚:改革与革命之争没有意义—唤醒国人之438
·Wei Liu Revolution 438: The Debate between Reform and Revolution is Me
·刘蔚:声援被判19年的张海涛—唤醒国人之439
·Wei Liu Revolution 439: Oral Support Zhang Haitao, Sentenced for 19 Ye
·劉蔚:致蔡英文及臺灣民眾的公開信—喚醒國人之440
·Wei Liu Revolution 440: Open Letter to Taiwan President Cai and Taiwan
·刘蔚:“一致通过”“为革命学习”—六年高考/刘蔚回忆录1.103
·Wei Liu Memoire 1.103: “Consensus” to “Study for Revolution”
·刘蔚:2015年中国十大万人和平革命—唤醒国人之441
·Wei Liu Revolution 441: Top 10 Protests in China in 2015
·刘蔚:中共国是腐败官员领导的,以专制制度为基础的
·Wei Liu/Blue Revolution 442: China, A Country Led by Corruptive Commun
·刘蔚:海外华人应告别习近平的文革前中国
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 443: Oversea Chinese Should Stay Away F
·刘蔚回忆录1.104:只有民主人士才爱国
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.104: Only Democratic People Love A Country
·刘蔚:为海外中餐馆说句公道话—唤醒国人/白开水革命之444
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 444: Speak Fairly for Oversea Chinese R
·刘蔚回忆录1.105:在专制中国,我没有任何技能
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.105: I Have No Skills in Communist China
·刘蔚回忆录:79越战全镜头—六年高考1.106
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.106: An Overview on 1979 Vietnam War
·刘蔚:声援北风/温云超—唤醒国人/白开水革命之445
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 445: Support for Bei Feng/Wen Yuncao
·刘蔚回忆录1.107:高平战役:越军1个师对中共军7个师
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.107: Gaoping Battle: 1 Vietnamese Division vs 7 Chine
·刘蔚回忆录1.108:79越战高平战役:许世友指挥的7个师惨败了
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.108: 79 Vietnam War, Gaoping Battle: 7 Chinese Commun
·刘蔚回忆录109:高平战役:越军1个师打得许世友11个师失去了战力
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.109: Gaoping Battle: 1 Vietnam Division Makes 11 Chi
·刘蔚回忆录110:高平战役:许世友指挥的11个师彻底失败了
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.110: Gaoping Battle: 11 Chinese Communist Divisions G
·刘蔚回忆录1.111:凉山战役:中共军七个师损失惨重
· Wei Liu Memoir 1.111: Liangshan Battle: 7 Chinese Communist Divisions
·刘蔚:硕士员工雷洋在中共警察手中死了—唤醒国人/白开水革命之446
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 446: Employee Lei Yang, Master Degree D
·刘蔚:雷洋多半没有嫖娼—唤醒国人/白开水革命之447
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 447: Lei Yang Unlikely to Have Had Sex
·刘蔚:普通百姓反思文革50周年—唤醒国人/白开水革命之448
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 448: Common People Recollect on the Cul
·刘蔚回忆录1.112:79越战:东线中共军惨败了
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.112: Yietnam War 1979: Chinese Communist East Front S
·刘蔚回忆录1.113:79越战:中共军全线失败了
·Wei Liu Memoir 113: Yietnam War 1979: Chinese Communist Failed in the
·刘蔚:对于战争,习近平同样只会喊喊而已—唤醒国人/白开水革命之449
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 449: About War, Xi Jinping Can Only Tal
·刘蔚回忆录1.114:中国威胁论应改为中共侵略论
·Wei Liu Memoir 114: China Threat Should Change to Chinese Communist In
·刘蔚:欢呼!金重齐消灭了一两名中共国保—唤醒国人/白开水革命之450
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 450: Acclaim! Jin Zhongqi Has Annihilat
·刘蔚:留在美国根本需要热爱美国—唤醒国人/白开水革命之451
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 451: Staying in the United States Mainl
·刘蔚:国际仲裁中共败,南海鱼儿有救了—唤醒国人/白开水革命之452
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 452: International Arbitration, Communi
·刘蔚回忆录1.115:79越战是越军教训了中共军 白开水革命
·Wei Liu Memoir 115: 79 Vietnam War: Vietnam Forces Gave Chinese Commun
·刘蔚:来美国第一个五年别想绿卡的事—唤醒国人/白开水革命之453
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 453: First Five-Year in U. S. Do Not Th
·刘蔚:中共军要继续打压其师兄师傅师叔吗?—唤醒国人/白开水革命之454
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 454: Should Communist Forces Keep Strik
·刘蔚:魏京生等反思文革具有巨大现实意义—唤醒国人/白开水革命之455
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 455: Democratic People Like Wei Jingshe
·刘蔚:要么在美国每月一千美金,要么在中共国每月一千人民币
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 456: Either $1000 a Month in the United
·刘蔚:找个美国公民留在美国完全可行
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 457: It Is All Right to Find a U. S. Ci
·刘蔚:好华人社会在海外,坏华人社会在大陆 —唤醒国人/白开水革命之458
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 458: Good Chinese Society Is Outside Ch
·刘蔚:华人的真正祖国在海外 —唤醒国人/白开水革命之459
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 459: Chinese’s Real Homeland Is Overse
·刘蔚:中国人要么革命,要么出国—唤醒国人/白开水革命之460
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 460: Chinese Either Overthrow the Commu
·刘蔚:共产党搞的是马列国,不是中国—唤醒国人/白开水革命之461
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 461: What Communist Do Is Marxism, Not
·刘蔚回忆录1.116:79越战中共是罪恶一方,越南是正义一方
·Wei Liu Memoir 1.116: 79 Vietnam War: Chinese Communist Is Guilty, Vie
·刘蔚:换单位换家庭都不如换国家—唤醒国人/白开水革命之462
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 462: Job Change, Family Change Cannot C
·刘蔚:海归与文革同样荒谬—唤醒国人/白开水革命之463
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 463: Returning to Communist China Is Ab
·刘蔚:不能留在美国的华人都是封闭自己—唤醒国人/白开水革命之464
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 464: Whoever Cannot Stay in the United
·刘蔚:海归就是自取灭亡—唤醒国人/白开水革命之465
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 465: Chinese Returning to Communist Chi
·刘蔚:海归已死,独木桥派已败—唤醒国人/白开水革命之466
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 466: Oversea Returners and Using Profes
·刘蔚:留学生陷入了进退两难的严重困境—唤醒国人/白开水革命之467
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 467: Oversea Students Are in Serious Di
·刘蔚:来了美国,要嫁就嫁美国人/公民—唤醒国人/白开水革命之468
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 468: Coming to America, then Live with
·刘蔚:来美后就是成为美国公民的人生总决战—唤醒国人/白开水革命之469
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 469: Becoming U. S. Citizen—Decisive L
·刘蔚:最坏莫过官员,最傻莫过海归—唤醒国人/白开水革命之470
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 470: Communist Official Evilest; Overse
·刘蔚:成为美国公民才是真业绩—唤醒国人/白开水革命之471
·Wei Liu/Plain Water Revolution 471: Becoming U. S. Citizen Is Real Ach
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Wei Liu: My Life in China 1.4: What’s the Point of Being Strong?


   
   Wei Liu: My Life in China 1.4: What’s the Point of Being Strong?
   
   Wei Liu May 2013

   
   One day I lie in bed and my Mom comes in and says to me, “Old Wei Wei, you must listen to me. An 8-year-old child just got killed.” My home is at Lianglukou, Urban District, Chongqing, China. Those years are 1973 and 1974.
   
   “Then what did he do?” I ask.
   
   “I don’t know much either,” my Mom pauses a while and then says.
   
   I’m frightened. What bad things can a 8-year-old child do? Kill somebody? Burn down a building? I cannot imagine it. What I imagine most is he walking unsteady. I still believe in my Mom. Every day the broadcasting announces more anti-revolutionary enemy have been caught by the revolutionary people and get shot by gun. Every day is a victory. I don’t know why, but I feel there is something formidable in those laudatory words. I’m not too scared for I’m 4 years old any way. Nobody notices me. My Mom says so to me in the dark room, with the dark green curtain covering the window, nobody is around. Then she leaves.
   
   “hua—hua—hua—,” the sound of mixing the mahjong pieces by hand drags my thought back to the mahjong table. Yes, playing mahjong is much more pleasant than doing the class struggle. Now I feel I have some appetite. I take a candy out of my pocket, remove its paper cover and put it into my mouth. The candies in my pocket will be reduced by one for every one I eat. I have brought 7 or 8 candies with me every time I go out at night, but I do not eat them all. My Mom and Dad often do not replenish the candy jar in the flat closet in time. They never play mahjong. They must feel it is time wasting. What are they doing now? They must be reading books by the desk lamp. I don’t know why they like studying so much. Can that bring more candies? Can that bring more food? Can that bring more happiness? I don’t see it. But as adults, they may have some reason beyond my comprehension.
   
   “hua—hua—hua—,” another game of Mahjong is over. The one sitting opposite to Lady Wang wins. I don’t know what is regarded as winning. I just like standing there, watching them playing, and eating my candies now and then.
   
   When it is 9:00 pm, my Mom comes and brings me back home. I put the candies I didn’t touch back to the candy jar in the flat closet. Lying in the bed, I see my back of my Dad sitting by the 9-drawer desk, reading. He calls it that way for it has 9 drawers. The yellow beams of the desk lamp circumscribe his studying figure. He’s in a blue shirt with 4 pockets, 2 on the chest and 2 on the waist. Now his back faces me, not his front. I fear to see his front, which often assumes fierce. He seems to have absorbed by some complicated medical problem and is unlikely to strike me. There is no sound in the room. My Mom must be in the room too. Usually she does not go to other people’s home to have a chat, though we are surrounded by the neighbors. I like my Mom to be at home.
   
   “Mom, come—” I call.
   
   “Yes, Wei, wei. Mom is here,” my mom comes to my bedside. I guess she comes from the space right behind my bed board, where she may read a book by the round table, our dinner table. She sits beside my bed and I lie beside her, cozy, lovely. When I close my eye, I can fall asleep and forget about the world, but she cannot. She hasn’t lied on the bed yet.
   
   Hold a hand of my mom, I say, “Mom, before I sleep, can you tell me a story?”
   
   “OK. Once upon a time, there is a wolf and a beautiful girl called ‘Little Red Hat’. One day Little Red Hat goes to see her grandma……”
   
   “No, mommy, you have told me that story the day before yesterday. Can you tell me a new one?”
   
   “How can I tell you new story every day?” my Mom replies.
   
   “Mommy—“
   
   “Wei, sleep well.”
   
   I know my Mom is not going to tell me a new story today. Alas, so disappointing. I need new stories. Otherwise, what pleasure can I have in my life?
   
   The yellow beams of the desk lamp circumscribing my Dad’s big stature enter my eye. I narrow my eyes and see the yellow beams, interesting. In my scope, it looks different from usual times. I relax my eye and the yellow beams disappear, only the yellow light. I narrow my eye again and see the yellow beams again, interesting. After quite a while, I close my eye.
   
   “Hua—hua—hua—,” I get awakened by the sound. Lady Wang and the other three people are still playing mahjong downstairs. I look at the clock on the flat closet, 11:30 pm.
   
   “Let’s play the last circle.”
   
   That is Lady Wang’s voice from downstairs. Playing one circle means each of the four players opens a game, which will be 4 games. They started off playing right after the supper, which is about 6:30 pm. They have been playing Mahjong for 5 hours. They must feel it lots of fun. I truly feel Mahjong is a great activity of people. It does not cause people to hurt each other, to compete for material/wealth, or to spend a penny, and it brings so much happiness to people. All people in China should play Mahjong instead of hurting or competing each other. The yellow light still enters my eye, circumscribing the big stature of my Dad. He is still reading. Does he feel fun? I don’t know, maybe. My Mom is not in bed yet. I fall asleep.
   
   My life when I’m 3 or 4 is like that. If I can one day pass peacefully, and can watch people playing mahjong, life is so good to me. My Mom does not tell stories to me and does not protect me when my Dad strikes me. She seldom buys toys to me and seldom talks to me either. I feel both she and my Dad like reading books, like to be strong. I don’t know what goodness being strong can bring to people. What’s the point of being strong? Defeat other people? Are other people bad people? I don’t believe most people are bad people. If being strong is to defeat others and most of whom are good people, then being strong is just to hurt people. The broadcasting always eulogizes the strong people, the strong army, the strong nation. I see no goodness of its promoting the struggle and hurt among people. It looks that in the future people around and I will be victimized. My Dad and Mom want me to listen to them, listen to them, listen to them. I don’t know what on earth they want me to do? Do the home chore? No, they don’t require that. Want me to be quiet? I’m not always noisy. I don’t know.
   
   The end of “My Life in China 1.4: What’s the Point of Being Strong?”
   
   From Birth to the Graduation of Elementary School of My Life in China to be continued.
   
   U. S. Government Should Step Away from People’s Family Life,
   Legal Involvement in Education and Medical Issue
   
   I also want to write something to benefit the United States. I have thought of this a long time. In the 2010s, the United States suffers 1 trillion dollars of debts every year. Counting its population of about 300 million, every person from infant to over 100-year-old suffers $3,300 of debts every year on average. I try to make this short. In order for this country to survive, we must cut out all those programs not wanted by most people and the according personnel and budget. As I observe, there are 3 areas that the government should step away completely to save the budget.
   
   1. People’s family life. A pastor says, “You don’t know how selfish a person can be until
   you enter a relationship called marriage.” I don’t think most people want the government to step in to define marriage, to define divorce, to define happiness. Different people’s understanding of these things may be quite different. A child should live with each parent equal time if divorce and no child support should involve. Some state even orders the richer parent to pay the poorer parent, saying to erase the disparity of families. What are they doing? Many people like travel, but what is the longest distance in the world? That is the distance between people’s heart. It is a golden chance for a child to live with different environment especially in different economic levels. That way he can understand the world much better than one who lives in a single environment. On the one hand, no one should make a child’s life hard on purpose; on the other hand, I disagree of making the first 18 years of a person completely free of hardship. Without any hardship, how can a person grow up? The government involvement in people’s family life is disastrous. The current economy is not done by a few people, but by the whole one or two generations raised as children in the past. The current kids get way too much money. Every one moves on vehicles, and every one has cell phone. Smoke, drink and drug are the serious problems among the kids. And most of the 15-year-old students, as I see, don’t like walking and don’t cook either.

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